Dear Body of Mine,
This letter is long overdue. I am finally ready to take our relationship more seriously and I want to apologize for not having done it years ago.
You always support me in doing the things I want do, even when I have little regard for what it will cost you or how it will make you feel. I am aware that on occasion I have ignored you, mistreated you, judged you and hurt you. And still, every moment of every day, you show up to help me do life.
It has taken me awhile to figure out how to best care for you and celebrate you. I am learning constantly from my mistakes. Thank you for not giving up on me. I can’t be without you…literally… so I am committing ferociously to rising up and doing better as your partner.
It seems that somewhere in this beautiful mess called life, I lost track of our relationship. I stopped making time for you and I put my needs far ahead of yours. I don’t blame you for being upset with me.
Shorting you on sleep night after night, feeding you too much of the wrong kinds of food and too little of the right ones, neglecting your deep desire to move, and talking poorly about you, are just a few of the ways I have disrespected you in the past. You don’t deserve that.
From this day forward I will respect you with my thoughts, my actions and my words because without you life is impossible.
I haven’t been making time to listen to you and I often talk over you, silencing your wisdom with my own agenda and expectations. You tried to tell me for years that sugar was hurting you, but I just kept popping Advil to drown out the headaches you were sending me daily. Forgive me.
I know you have my best interests at heart and I will learn to be a better listener.
You have been patient beyond measure with me, yet, all too often I expect YOU to make radical changes overnight! I am just now starting to understand that it is unreasonable and unhealthy to put those types of demands on you.
Remember the time I made you go on a liquid diet because I wanted you to lose 10 lbs in 10 days? Or that time I lost my temper with you because you weren’t able to fit in my favorite dress by Christmas, despite making you run every morning and only feeding you 1000 calories a day the week prior? How terrible that must have been for you!
I assure you, gone are the days of quick fixes. You deserve excellent care EVERY day, not just when the mood strikes me.
I have taken you for granted and too often forget the miraculous gift that you are.
I don’t say this nearly enough, but more than anything else in this letter, please hear this:
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
And I look forward to spend the rest of my life showing you just how much.
Thank you for everything that you do for me. You are simply amazing.
Til Death Do Us Part,
The One on the Inside
P.S. I just finished creating an online course in dedication to you. Women Reignited is a course that teaches busy women how to take excellent care of their body with more ease and it launches on February 17th. Check it out: http://www.womenreignited.com